So I am 58 days post op today. That is 8 weeks, 2 days. I am down 38 lbs. I can walk two miles in 40 mins. LOL I am eating well, and drinking about 58-64 oz of fluids a day.
I am getting a lot of compliments from people noticing my weight loss. That is nice to hear. I do struggle with body image so badly though. In my mind, I know I've lost 38 lbs. and I know there is a difference but then when I think about that fact that I still have over 100 lbs. to lose, it seems so daunting and out of reach. I feel just as fat as ever and like I've really not made much progress.
I have this number in my mind... and I've allowed myself to think that once I get to that number I can feel OK about me. There is something wrong with that I know, and yet I can't get it out my mind. It is like nothing I do is worth anything until I reach that number.
Now I am trying to realize that I must find joy in the journey and not just in the destination.