It's almost been 3 years!

Three years ago vs. TODAY!


I'm still here

I know it appears that I went into hiding again but I'm here! I did have a couple days of struggle but am back at it. I refuse to give up. End of story.

Weight today: 154. Had seen lower but I'm taking it and going to see lower again...and once I leave these 150's behind, I'm going to try very very hard to not see them again!

It's a chilly rainy day...I've got homemade chicken noodle soup on the stove for the family. I'm doing laundry and watching a ton of shows I've dvr'ed over the last couple weeks. Basically just relaxing until I go into work tonight. I picked up a few night shifts this week to help out a friend.

I'm on spring break right now... Ended up w/ an A- in my class!

Kelly to answer your question about protein in my coffee... I use the RTD Atkins protein shakes and just pour some in the cup instead of using half and half. It mixes right in! :)

I'm watching Celebrity Fit Club right now... some of these people are not even fat. You've got to be kidding me... LOL



Today was a better day! I went and got my nails done and then bought Gabe a new pair of shoes (its camo in the DC)... these:

Then we ate at Olive Garden while Pepboys put a new tire on my car. Yep, that's right. Just bought 4 new tires two weeks ago... When we came out of the mall I heard "whoooooosh" and looked and there was a huge piece of metal in the tire. Thankfully, they gave us a brand new tire for $1.00. Now to call about the crack I got in my windshield Monday. A huge rock flew off a semi and cracked my window. And DJ is putting brakes on Saturday. I'm seriously SICK of putting money into this car!

I have been eating pretty well and have completely avoided
sugar for almost a week now. :) Hope to see some movement on the scale again soon!


Bad, no good, horrible, can't end soon enough day...

Does that title tell you anything?
It's been a rough week... and today was no exception. I am still eating right and hope it continues to pay off. I'm not planning on weighing in again until maybe Saturday morning. I still feel pretty puffy/bloated. Not sure what's up with that.
I bombed my anatomy exam today, and dropped from an A in the class to a B+. Ugh. If I buckle down for finals next week, I'll be able to pull it back up I hope. *fingers crossed*
A few other craptastic things happened today and I'm just in a mood. Rawr.



day 5....

Worked today...going strong :) 151 lbs. Now off to study for an exam tomorrow.


Day 4...154

On plan. Worked 16 hrs yesterday... exhausted today. Down 6 lbs. so far....


Day 2...156.2

Yep, down 4 lbs. Can you even believe that? I'm amazed at the amount of water my body holds on to when I'm not eating right. It's crazy and although I know that's water weight, it still gives me a boost to make it through another day of clean eating.
I'm heading into work and have my lunch packed! :) We have a wedding to go to tonight, but I'll behave!


On track

I'm doing well today. Not one cookie or bad carb has crossed these lips. I found that old determination and today really hasn't been much of a struggle. I'm not getting haughty about it though. I know at any given moment I could plunge right into old habits and eat my way through a box of cookies. I am making a conscious decision though....each hour, minute, second.... to eat right.


Not working out very well

So I came on here a few days ago frustrated with my weight gain and claiming I was going to make some changes. Instead, according to the scale, I gained 2 lbs. I know it is the endless snacking I'm doing. I think I have some issues going on though that are making eating less difficult for me. I am pretty sure I've got an ulcer brewing and when my stomach is empty, I get this gnawing pain that is alleviated when I put something in there. It has become a cycle... eat, feel good, get gnawing pain, eat, feel better, get gnawing pain, repeat...
Normally, I would've already been to the doctor and gotten some medication, but we are with out insurance right now b/c of the job situation we've been dealing with. I suppose I could try something over the counter, but I'm not sure of what would even work! Any suggestions?
Today I've made an effort. Which has been sort of blocked by the 175 boxes of girl scout cookies I have sitting in my kitchen. 16 of which belong to us. I think I've had about 5 cookies today. I also had:
coffee w/ protein
english muffin w/ pb and half a banana
chicken salad w/ spinach, ranch and cheese
a pickle
a string cheese
oh, and 5 girl scout cookies...
There is progress there, believe it or not. I've got a yummy crockpot full of chicken taco stew going for supper. It's low cal/low carb-ish and will get me through the evening.
I can't believe I'm one of those WLS people who let myself go and gain 27 lbs back from my lowest weight. I used to sit back and think it could never happen to me, but it did.
I didn't update this blog for many reasons. First of all, I knew people in my real life (family, co-workers, etc) had found it and I didn't want to fuel any gossip or drama. Secondly, I didn't think I needed support anymore. And finally, my life got really super busy there for a while and I didn't have time to write. I believe those 3 things have directly effected my failures. It made it easy for me to ignore what I was putting in my mouth.
So I've decided that those who want to talk about me can continue to talk. I do need support and no matter how busy I am, I can not let my health go. I can't tell you the last time I took a vitamin. :(
So again today I vow to do better. It may be baby steps... and it may take me awhile to get back to my sweet spot (140-145) but I will get there. I have to.


Almost 3 years out...

Next month is my 3 year anniversary since having gastric bypass surgery. I really have changed so much since I rolled into the OR that day. Being in nursing school, working full time, running like crazy w/ my kiddos and husband and taking on new challenges that I would've never been able to accomplish at 300ish lbs.! Lately though, I've been feeling like old habits have creeped in. Even now, I can see the heads of fellow WLSer nod their heads in agreement, as they read that statement. It starts as a little extra bite or there.... or sip of liquids too early.... a nibble of dessert here and there til the whole piece is gone.... then turns into sitting in line at a fast food restaurant for lunch 3 times a week.

So my weight is up. I weighed 157 lbs. this a.m.... teetering on the obese category according to the BMI charts. I had to buy new jeans and they were a double digit size... something I said I'd never see again.

The thing is, I don't have to be 132 lbs. again... I'd love to stay between 140-145. That is where I feel the best. I am a size 6/8 and feel healthy at that point. Where I am now, I feel fat again.

So, why do I continue to shovel food down my throat? Yesterday I had consumed almost 2000 calories before 11 a.m. Um, yeah. That's sick. Lack of sleep, lack of choices, lack of self control....

The plan? I bought a ton of healthy food today... I've got 16 RTD protein shakes in my fridge too. No excuses. I've got to lose 15 lbs.

My surgerversary is next month. It'd be nice to be in my happy weight zone by then. :)

So, hop on.....I'm on the move again.... :)