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3/2/10

Almost 3 years out...

Next month is my 3 year anniversary since having gastric bypass surgery. I really have changed so much since I rolled into the OR that day. Being in nursing school, working full time, running like crazy w/ my kiddos and husband and taking on new challenges that I would've never been able to accomplish at 300ish lbs.! Lately though, I've been feeling like old habits have creeped in. Even now, I can see the heads of fellow WLSer nod their heads in agreement, as they read that statement. It starts as a little extra bite or there.... or sip of liquids too early.... a nibble of dessert here and there til the whole piece is gone.... then turns into sitting in line at a fast food restaurant for lunch 3 times a week.

So my weight is up. I weighed 157 lbs. this a.m.... teetering on the obese category according to the BMI charts. I had to buy new jeans and they were a double digit size... something I said I'd never see again.

The thing is, I don't have to be 132 lbs. again... I'd love to stay between 140-145. That is where I feel the best. I am a size 6/8 and feel healthy at that point. Where I am now, I feel fat again.

So, why do I continue to shovel food down my throat? Yesterday I had consumed almost 2000 calories before 11 a.m. Um, yeah. That's sick. Lack of sleep, lack of choices, lack of self control....

The plan? I bought a ton of healthy food today... I've got 16 RTD protein shakes in my fridge too. No excuses. I've got to lose 15 lbs.

My surgerversary is next month. It'd be nice to be in my happy weight zone by then. :)

So, hop on.....I'm on the move again.... :)

1 comment:

Laurie (GastricGirl.com) said...

Hi there.. I'm 2.5 years out and having the same struggles. I think part of it is that when we were 300 pounds, a pound or two gain was absolutely just a drop in the bucket. Now, it completely makes a difference. My lowest weight was 154 (I'm 5'6") and right now I'm around 160. I would love to get down to 149.8 purely for psychological reasons, but I'd be happy at 155. :) You're doing great and you'll get back to your happy spot!
Hugs! :)