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4/8/08

Week 51 in the life of a RNY patient...

I am coming up on my 1 year anniversary from my RNY.

Last year, this week, I was busy preparing things for my post op life. I had purchased all of my vitamins, and supplements...and was walking around in nervousness, excitment, disbelief and fear. LOL....I remember walking upstairs one day and when I got to the top, after catching my breath, thinking for a split second that I should try a diet on my own one last time, but quickly realized that this was my last option. I thought about my life one year out. If I had the surgery, I knew I'd be close to goal... if I didn't I know in my heart, I'd still be 277 or more right now. Somehow in my heart, I knew I was making the right choice.

I had arranged for the kids to stay w/ my mom while I was in the hospital, and I was busy making lists of what I needed to pack, as lists of their activities, things they needed for school, medicine dosages, favorite foods and drinks, and any other thing I could think of. I was nervous about leaving them for 3 whole days, but I knew I was getting my life back. If I spent 3 days away from them, it was ok, b/c I was adding years on my life, to spend with them later.

Gabe was only 8 months at teh time, and I was worried that he'd miss me, or cry for me and I wouldn't be able to answer him. That put some guilt on me, but once I reminded myself that I was doing this for them too!

I was nervous, I was scared, but I was also relieved and happy and ready to start my new life as a post op.

The last year has FLOWN by. I can't belive I'm sitting here now, 133 lbs lighter and full of energy and life. I have a closet full of cute clothes... I want to go places and do things. I'm excited about life again. :)

5 comments:

Through Thick and Thin said...

doesnt it feel great!!??? I love it too!
and yes, i know what you mean about thinking that you could just try one more diet - omg - it was so scary to be in that pre-op room. But like you, i knew i had to do it. and no regrets.
You go girl!

BrownieGirl said...

I've been lurking/reading your blog for a few months now. I just wanted to let you know that you've been such an inspiration to me. Reading about your journey has kept me upbeat and positive. Through you I know there is hope!

Thank you for sharing your story. It has made a difference in my life.

(As an aside, I'm currently pre-op, finishing the last of my pre-operative tests. Oh, and I'm an Amber too!!!)

Amber said...

Amber/Brownie Girl:
Thank you so much for your comment today! I love that I'm actually helping people w/ this blog!!! :) Good luck and please let me know how you are progressing! When is your surgery scheduled for?

BrownieGirl said...

My surgery isn't scheduled yet. I just had my last pre-operative test yesterday (an upper GI endoscopy), and now is the wait for insurance approval. According to my surgeon's office, I'm looking at the end of this month or the beginning of May.

I've been thinking of starting a blog of my own. Hmmmmm....

Amber said...

YES!! Start a blog.. they are a wonderful tool to others who are researching and a great way to chronicle your own success!! :) Do it! :)