I am coming up on my 1 year anniversary from my RNY.
Last year, this week, I was busy preparing things for my post op life. I had purchased all of my vitamins, and supplements...and was walking around in nervousness, excitment, disbelief and fear. LOL....I remember walking upstairs one day and when I got to the top, after catching my breath, thinking for a split second that I should try a diet on my own one last time, but quickly realized that this was my last option. I thought about my life one year out. If I had the surgery, I knew I'd be close to goal... if I didn't I know in my heart, I'd still be 277 or more right now. Somehow in my heart, I knew I was making the right choice.
I had arranged for the kids to stay w/ my mom while I was in the hospital, and I was busy making lists of what I needed to pack, as lists of their activities, things they needed for school, medicine dosages, favorite foods and drinks, and any other thing I could think of. I was nervous about leaving them for 3 whole days, but I knew I was getting my life back. If I spent 3 days away from them, it was ok, b/c I was adding years on my life, to spend with them later.
Gabe was only 8 months at teh time, and I was worried that he'd miss me, or cry for me and I wouldn't be able to answer him. That put some guilt on me, but once I reminded myself that I was doing this for them too!
I was nervous, I was scared, but I was also relieved and happy and ready to start my new life as a post op.
The last year has FLOWN by. I can't belive I'm sitting here now, 133 lbs lighter and full of energy and life. I have a closet full of cute clothes... I want to go places and do things. I'm excited about life again. :)