After reading about another blogger in MM's blog hiding her blog I decided to google my name, the various usernames that I use and I was urked to see that I am pretty easy to find online. Yikes. I write some not so nice things about people sometimes AND I having my weight plastered all over creation for people to see is not my idea of fun.
So what did I do? I tried to cover my steps. I made my profile at OH private first and foremost b/c everytime I googled my email, that came up. Next I deleted posts, and an old blog I had from 2005 that had 1 entry, and did my best to hide!
So... do I feel safe? Not really. ACK. I would be mortified if people found my real thoughts and feelings. I put up a good front to my family and friends. In fact, I had one friend tell me that they never saw me let my weigh bother me or stop me from doing things. It was a compliment I know and yet I thought, I don't want to be the person that "doesn't let their massive weight effect them!" Because it DOES effect me. Every freaking day. It stops me from doing so much.
I pour my heart out here but that doesn't mean that I want my family and friends to know what I really think. And I don't want to be censored either.
So what do I do now?
Hopefully no one has found me yet.
Crap.
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Quick Stats
- Start Weight: 277 lbs.
- Lowest Weight Post Op:132 lbs.
- Today's Weight: 150 lbs.
- Goal Weight: 140-145 lbs.
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About Me
- Amber
- New Haven, Ohio, United States
- I am a 31 yr old mom of 3...full time student and part time working mom! I am on the journey of a lifetime as I lose 140+ lbs. after having gastric bypass surgery on 04/16/07!
- 3 YEARS POST OP: total loss - lbs. (weight: lbs.)
- Month 35: -6 lbs. (154 lbs.)
- Month 33: +12 (160 lbs.)
- Month 28: -/+ 0 (148 lbs.)
- Month 27: -/+ 0 (148 lbs.)
- Month 26: +1 lb. (148 lbs.)
- Month 25: +3 lbs. (147 lbs.)
- 2 YEARS POST OP: total loss -133 lbs. (weight: 144 lbs.)
- Month 23: -/+ 0 lbs. (145 lbs.)
- Month 22: +2 lbs. (145 lbs.)
- Month 21: -4 lbs. (143 lbs.)
- Month 20: -/+ 0 lbs. (147 lbs.)
- Month 19: +5 lbs. (147 lbs.)
- Month 18: +4 lbs. (142 lbs.)
- Month 17: +6 lbs. (138 lbs.)
- Month 16: -12 lbs. for the month (132 lbs.)
- Month 15: +6 for the month (144 lbs.)
- Month 14: -9 lbs. for the month (138 lbs)
- Week 61: 138
- Week 60: 143
- Week 59: 144
- Week 58: 142
- Week 57: 144
- Month 13: +5 for the month (147 lbs.)
- Week 56: 142
- Week 55: 144
- Week 54: 144
- Week 53: 144
- 1 YEAR POST OP: total loss -135 lbs. ( weight: 142 lbs)
- Month 12: -7 lbs. for the month
- Week 52:142 yay!
- Week 51: 146 STILL!!!
- Week 50: 146
- Week 49: 146
- Month 11: -2 lbs for the month
- Week 48: 149
- Week 47: 153
- Week 46: 150
- Week 45: 152
- Month 10: -4 lbs. for the month
- Week 44: 151
- Week 43: 152
- Week 42: 148
- Week 41: 154
- Week 40: 151
- Month 9: -11 lbs. for the month
- Week 39: 155
- Week 38: 157
- Week 37: 160
- Week 36: 162
- Week 35: 165
- Month 8: -10 lbs. for the month
- Week 34: 166
- Week 33: 166
- Week 32: 167
- Week 31: 171
- Month 7: -10 lbs. for the month
- Week 30: 176
- Week 29: 175
- Week 28: 176
- Week 27: 181
- Month 6: -8 lbs. for the month
- Week 26: 186
- Week 25: 189
- Week 24: 188
- Week 23: 193
- Month 5: -17 lbs. for the month
- Week 22: 192
- Week 21: 197
- Week 20: 199
- Week 19: 204
- Week 18: 208
- Month 4: -10 lbs. for the month
- Week 17: 209
- Week 16: 210
- Week 15: 214
- Week 14: 218
- Month 3: -17 lbs. for the month
- Week 13: 219
- Week 12: 223
- Week 11: 226
- Week 10: 229
- Week 9: 233
- Month 2: -14 lbs. for the month
- Week 8: 236
- Week 7: 239
- Week 6: 244
- Week 5: 247
- Month 1: -28 lbs. for the month
- Week 4: 251
- Week 3: 254
- Week 2: 256
- Week 1: 260
- Surgery:274
- PreSurgery Weight: 277
"Chocolate Chip Cookies never loved me back. "-elasticwaist.com
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2 comments:
This is how the Internet works and if somebody is determined to find you, they will. We've had a handful of bloggers join the webring and then drop out and delete their blogs because they discovered a particular person had found them. You have to know how things work from the start. It's your judgment call.
A big part of this journey for me has been learning to own my feelings and gaining the courage to share them. I don't care who "finds" me because I write my truth .. and I live my truth. Stick with it Amber.. you'll be amazed how much more secure in yourself you'll become in the coming months.
I hope you have a fabulous Mother's Day with your little angels! xoxo D
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