Before!

3/21/08

16 lbs. to go...

16 lbs. to get my goal.
10 lbs will put my BMI at 24.9 and I will be in a healthy weight range.
WOW.

Those are small numbers. I can't believe how close I am! At the same time what do I do now? What do I focus my attention on after a year of having the surgery and the weight loss be in the forefront of my mind all the time? How do I maintain what I've lost? How often should I weigh myself?

See, I've lived two lives. The "I'm-on-a-diet" life and the "I-can-eat-whatever-I-want,-as-much-as-I-want-b/c-I'm-going-on-a-diet-next-week" life. I've never lived the "I-am-at-a-healthy-weight-and-just-need-to-maintain" life. Ever. I don't know what it feels like or how to act or what to eat or how to live. It's all new. I went on my first diet in 7th grade and even before that I knew I was a chubby girl w/ a round face. When I was 5 years old, I remember my mom telling me that I didn't "need" dessert. Way to go Mom. Thanks for putting your weight/food issues on me... what I was 5!

Anyway, this is a new place for me, and while I still have a few pounds to lose, I want to start getting ready mentally for this new place. One thing I am excited about is getting to buy new clothes and getting to wear them for longer than a month or two if I'm lucky! lol

OH, which reminds me, I put on a size 6 skirt from Old Navy yesterday, that belonged to my bff and it fit perfectly. It was actually kinda loose. I couldn't even wrap my brain around it and decided it was made big. LOL I'm going to go to Old Navy this weekend again and try some stuff on. I need spring/summer clothes and need to get a little at a time so as not to break the bank.

Work is going great. I worked 4 days this week and they tried to call me in again today but I said no. I needed a break. I really like my job, but I am mentally drained after 4 days in a row and my back needs a break too! Since I started there a week ago, I broke my stall and lost 7 lbs. Seriously, that job is like an 8 hr. work out. I come home worn out and drenched in sweat, but in a weird way, it feels good to get moving like that.

We don't have any plans for this weekend, but I thought DJ was going to get the 3 days off,but he's only getting Easter off. It totally sucks, but he's getting paid triple time for today's shift, and then time and half for tomorrow. I guess that helps make up the fact that we can't go anywhere now, like we had planned. We'll have dinner at mom's and an egg hunt for the kids Sunday. :)

1 comment:

Becky said...

Wow. So close. Im sure you will be there in no time. Congrats on the size 6. Soon you will be a size 4!!