2008

Let's hope it's great. :)

Ok. That was lame.

Anyway, 2008 is here. :) I'm praying that it's better than 2007, but honestly, 2007 sucked towards the end. December was possibly one of the worst months of my life. I've decided we can only go up from here. :)

So...last night I worked til 10, and then DJ and my bro Jake, came and picked me up. We brought in the new year at our house with my mom, Jakes gf, my other brother and then our family. It was fine. Everyone left by 12:30 and DJ and I laid on the floor together and watched tv. It was such a special moment. Just he and I, holding each other and kissing softly. Very nice. :)

Around 2, Gabe decided to wake up and play... lol We all finally crashed around 3:30 and I woke up sometime around 10 this a.m. We got dressed and went shopping for a while and ate Chinese. Well they ate chinese. I mostly just drank coffee. The pouch is being pouty these last few days.

I didn't really feel that well today and still don't. Not sure what's going on but I haven't been able to see straight for a few days and have ahd a horrible headache for a week. I don't get too paniced b/c it is close to my cycle and I always get migraines around that time but I think with the holiday and added stress it's kicking my butt extra today.

I came home and crashed for 45 mins. and then got up and cooked supper. Tried to eat, but ended up w/ a cup of hot tea instead.

I was excited to reach a small goal this a.m. I really wanted to be in the 150's by the end of Dec. and this morning I weighed 159.2 :) It feels great. I went to Old Navy today and fit into size 10 pants! Yay!!

My mom said some hurtful things to me today. She and my gram are really harping on me about losing 29 more lbs. They want me to stop where I am. Today she said my face is already looking too thin and gaut. She said if I lose too much more, I "just won't be pretty anymore". Ugh. Thanks.

The thing is, I am not even trying to lose weight. Honestly, I don't exercise and I eat pretty much what I want to. (Although the pouch rejects a lot and after 1 or 2 bites I stop). She thinks I never eat or am starving myself on purpose. I just hate eating. I hate food. I hate the way I feel when I eat. I hate how sick it makes me feel. It's easier just to drink coffee, water, ice tea and propel. :) I do have the occasional protein shake, and at work I eat a lot of mozzerella stix... umm yeah I know bad... deep fried... but it's cheese and cheese is protein!! ;) ) I dunno. I have an appt. with my family doctor tomorrow. It's mostly to get put back on my antidepressant, but I also need my butt kicked b/c I've had zero labs drawn and I missed my 6 month surgeon check up. I spent a lot of last night rubbing my legs too b/c they were crampy.


After typing all that out, I guess the doctor visit has pretty good timing.